you don’t know me.

i wrote this lengthy entry a few hours ago, but suddenly the internet connection decided to disconnect for awhile (without myself realizing it) and hey, whaddya know?

i lost the entry completely.

so you know, i’m pretty annoyed at the idea of blogging right now, but somehow i’m still writing…

i was writing about the fact that i’d spent almost an entire Sunday evening writing the two reports of my PEKA Chemistry- this was the second time i was writing the first report since there were some mistakes in the original one- and i was already halfway through with the second one when suddenly, out of the blue, it hit me that OH MY GOD I LEFT OUT THE APPARATUS AND MATERIALS BIT!!!!

of course i’m done with them now- the whole re-writing process of back-to-back report- but i can’t describe to you just how frustrated i was about this- maybe it’s my own lack of focus or whatever that it completely slipped my mind and eyes even from the beginning, but geez, the reports had been annoying me from the start of the holiday and the last thing i wanted to do was to rewrite them non-stop.

guess i don’t always get what i wish for, huh?

one new thing i did get though, is this: Dad’s spare small (literally) Vaio laptop.

i have no idea of the real “name” of it and all that stuff, but i do know that it has about 40GB of empty hard-drive space and that it’s working fine with internet connection and Microsoft Word (which is really all i do, other than obsessing about NEWS online on watching videos) so i’m happy, and definitely grateful; Alhamdulillah, truly :)

sometimes i feel as if i’d unconsciously subscribed to some kind of once-in-a-blue-moon special of Great Blessings because there are times when i wish i had something and then really did get them, especially when i totally did not expect or see them coming at all- like with my W800i phone, or my current Motorola K1, or with the iPod (a darn good idea to share with Third Bro, i must say, because he handles all the technical stuff about it while i only need to arrange the music and all that jazz) and now, this laptop.

i was honestly, seriously just joking when i told Dad i wanted one, but coincidentally he really did have a spare laptop since he bought a new one late last year!

i’m not complaining though, not at all- and i will not abuse or overuse it!

okay, i hope i won’t! :D

…by the way, did i tell you just how annoyed i currently am with people who just don’t know how to show even a tinny-weeny bit of empathy?

if you don’t have anything nice to say when someone’s feeling the pressure, then don’t say anything at all;

geez, and to think that all i’d wanted was a little bit of moral support from you.