1:16AM confessions.

it kind of feels like i’m jumping ship to another JE boyband …but nay nay nay, i’ll stay on with NEWS still for the time being ha ha ha.

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can we ever revert time, turn back so that our past can be erased?

so the people whom we’d met in the past, we could pretend we never knew them and how much- not matter how insignificant they were in our memories- they can still leave us feeling as if we’re 7, 9, 12, 13…?

there’s a reason why i’m not on Facebook-land.

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she was the girl i grew up with, probably the real childhood bestfriend- the one i’d shared countless late-night Maggie bowls with and talking till 3am when we were kids, the one who knew almost all my secrets, the one who slept next to me everytime we could and never complained about how loud i snore…

then she left high school, a year before i did.

and it kind of feels like everything changed since then.

so a year later, i left high school too.

“I didn’t know you’re in college already you know. When did you start?”

but i clearly remember telling her about this, night of my birthday.

growing up is a funny thing- when we were kids, we dreamt of all sorts of things for ourselves and about sticking together despite everything that will happen but really, we forget to take into account this:

what if it’s us who changed?

because this is what happens and as we chase different dreams now, we’re turning into different girls with different outlooks and personalities when compared to who we were back then.

like with other people, i stopped texting Hi; i don’t know how to reconnect.

i want to tell you, hey cousin, i miss you like hell.

but i don’t know how.

i still have hope though- that once we’re done differentiating into the girls we’re meant to be… hopefully we’ll be mature enough to pick up where we’d last left off, years ago.

but still, hey cousin, you know… i really miss you like hell.