lonely blues.

it feels like 2009 is passing by in a blur- too much of new things and ch-ch-changes, sometimes i wonder if i can keep up still.

today, semester 2 is officially over.

while i’m breathing a sigh of relief, i’m also feeling a little lonely – which is actually, kind of the theme of the week, sigh.

honestly, i’m not very stable right now- exactly why i ought to just shut up.

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“Am i ready to fly?”

i don’t know, i really don’t.

but i made the choice.

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here’s the thing, the most ironic thing:

i am so much like her and she’d been right all along;

you’re so much like him, after all.

the fact that you can lie through your teeth with mother of all straight faces and unflinching attitude, ahhh now that’s him in you for sure.

or maybe that’s simply been you all along.

why is it that when we grow up, we keep seeing more and more ugly things?

the ugly things in everyday life, and in the people we love.

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i am so tired, emotionally pent-up i guess, in a way.

or hah, maybe i’m just being dramatic.