bff (eeek i hate this initial, it’s so ugh).

you know you’re turning nutty when you start dreaming CHEMISTRY – waking up at 6am with a start cos the panic started kicking.

because chemistry paper is tomorrow and your life practically depends on it.

wait, that’s not you – that’s me!

.

okay that was lame.

anyway, i think i got a little too excited on Wednesday and yesterday that i couldn’t keep my head in the game but Alhamdulillah for the panic attack (very typical-N) last night because panic mode keeps me grounded.

makes me realize that heck, i haven’t even confirmed ANYTHING really!

but on a side note, i’ve officially confirmed a place in the university of my choice – more details when it comes true (wink wink; prays hard).

because she has been with me all throughout the way in support and belief, i await the day that i can text Fi and shout, “OMG ITS HAPPENING!!!!”

…but let’s not get too ahead of ourselves right now okay, N? :)

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i think i’m falling out of love with NEWS.

it’s kind of sad.

i’m trying to hold on but… the flame kind of died out.

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(open letter, cos i don’t know how often you check your email)

to Fi:

babe, i don’t know how else to reach you (no facebook hahahaha) since you said you lost your phone – and just so happen that two days ago was the day i sent you about 4 texts about my supergoodnews! (and thanking you for being so supportive, haha) – but anyway no matter, i miss you, hope you’re okay about this whole thing, that you’ll find it back if you could. let me know how/when i can get in touch with you! other than that, just stay healthy and happy! :)

love you, xoxo