This morning at 11 AM, after a very stressful 24 hours and even more stressful last six days, at last I handed in my take-home final exam and with that, I’m officially a…
♣ College Graduate 2.0 ♣
What a milestone! I’m just… I feel so happy!
And grateful like you wouldn’t believe. I’ll be honest: for the last two years, I had several moments where I legit wasn’t sure if I would make it to the finish line. I don’t half ass things in general, important or trivial, but for the first time I found myself questioning several times… can I actually see this through to the end? Those who’ve gone through a masters program may beg to differ ergo it’s not as hard and difficult as I make it seem, but personally for me, the last two years were hard. They weren’t just mentally challenging, but also emotionally difficult. I learned, boy did I learn plenty, but I also paid a lot – monetarily and soul-searchingly – for the experiences.
Alas, while the road to learning has no end, the process itself does terminate in order to give way to the next stage. And so I’m here – I’m on the other side of freedom now!
Who would’ve known this about myself? I didn’t. Armed with a masters degree in a week’s time, homebound in two, and starting anew, whatever and however this will reveal itself to be in due time. This is it, I’m actually about to leave Stanford behind and the US for good. What a journey this has been. I can’t tell you anything about what’s next because I don’t know either but I will tell you that despite the many breakdowns and anxiety attacks I’d suffered over the past three quarters, particularly when thoughts about the uncertain future arise – in hindsight, I’m really glad my siblings insisted I take time off between now and the Big Bad because no kidding, right now all that’s on my mind are all the things I want to do: the books I want to read, the shows I’ve backlogged, the various places at home and around Southeast Asia I’ve been meaning to visit and above all, experiences to live and write about, and people to love.
The future is bright indeed and I am walking towards it with an open heart and mind :)