“When they don’t love you the way you want to, you mourn that for however long you need to. But then you get back up and you remind yourself. You are not a reflection of the people who can’t love you. You will love again. You will be loved again.”
— Caitlyn Siehl
Bringing this back – always – from decembi in 2014:
“I want to tell you that there will be all kinds of love in this world, and most fascinating of all, you can only marry one of them. That love that cannot be spoken between friends is felt regardless – just that as time passes, it recedes into a beautiful or even forgotten memory. Only recalled when a certain song is played, or the sky feels like a certain weather. There will be people you like, who won’t like you back, and people who like you back but will never be able to take responsibility for your feelings.”
And this, recently, from Michelle in 2016:
“I would say, perhaps, instead of guarding your heart against loneliness, to guard your heart against rash decisions. Or, taking actions in the fluster of emotions. This will sound so clinical, but between friends, stakes are high and it is better, I think, to approach a possibility with the level-headedness of some very logical thin[kin]g. Not that this will produce the desired results, because it’s a terible thing that your heart is not in your own hands, but at least you can determine, without doubt, that your feelings are true and the risk worthwhile. I think we are all toyed with by loneliness but we don’t have to become victims — and our friendships don’t have to become casualties.”
I have… a lot of growing up still left to do. It’s something like heartbreak warfare over here.