I wrote and posted this on my personal Facebook just hours ago, when I was still in the office at 7 PM:
Because no one is going to be proud of me (and yup, I’m aware I’m not supposed to expect this either) – I’m honestly genuinely proud of myself for putting together and writing ALL the Project documents required to bring a project of my team’s level and type to execution phase. (My first ever project too!) My neighboring desk colleague was surprised to find out that I’ve been doing these tasks and two other colleagues told me today that they think I’m learning and picking up fast; I’m not sure of this myself (4th colleague: “Your yardstick for yourself is too high”) but what I understand (a lot) better now is that learning curves aren’t linear for good reasons. I… accept that now. I’m trying to remain patient in this process of Becoming. I’m also trying and working very hard to learn to love two things at once instead of being stuck in a negative space where I constantly feel, irrespective by force or self-imposed, that I must give one up for the other. *pumps fist*
I’m genuinely surprised at the number of likes this little paragraph has garnered thus far.
Just about an hour ago, my Environmental mentor/friend replied with the best three-word sentence:
“And she’s back…”
Thank you, always, for being tirelessly patient with me even as I
bitch write my way through the stages of adulthood growth.