We spoke of vulnerabilities tonight.
Why do I wear my heart on my sleeves, authentic and honest to a fault, and unashamed to openly admit my innermost thoughts and flaws? “Correct me if I’m wrong-“ my friend says. She asked about expressing innermost thoughts.
“I have a deep fear of being too much. That one day
I will find my someone, and they will realize
that I am
a hurricane. That they will step back and be
by my muchness.”
— Michelle K.
The poem above is my why – it’s because my deepest fear is at times genuinely paralyzing. I have, however, learned that to overcome our greatest fears, we’ve to learn to face it right in the eye. Acknowledgement followed by quiet acceptance.
I am the way I am now because I no longer want to be afraid and apologetic for being a hurricane. There is no need to keep being apologetic for my weak spots, real and imaginary. There is no need to keep saying sorry for taking up space.
I love this sentence – it feels like I’ve truly ‘arrived’:
“You like him, that’s clear. But you like yourself – that’s clear too.”