Something I wrote last 2 Mondays ago and safekeeping here; A thought I had this afternoon: I want so much to tell girls, young or old, dealing with insecurities and self-esteem issues that other girls are not competition. You probably already know this but how important it is to be reminded every now and then … More “Trust yourself in the process of becoming.”
This is the weekend of breaking news to close friends, in-person as much as possible, therefore the internet will have to wait for a little longer. It is all good news, I promise – that silver lining is mine this time around and I’m forevermore grateful. I’m waiting for a little longer before it goes … More “I’m so proud and happy for you”
A Ramadhan reflection special cos it’s a quiet, beautiful Sunday morning. I spoke briefly to my Eldest Sis two evenings ago about my recent work-life development and she lamented about the Power of Dua (written in caps cos that’s how she meant it). “Never underestimate the power of dua,” she said. I agree wholeheartedly especially, … More “I’m exactly where I’m meant to be”
Mohi wrote me a heartwarming comment that came at just the right timing cos as weird as this sounds, I’ve been missing and thinking of writing lately and thought I’d maybe make occasional comebacks here. Which is a funny but relieving thought where blogphilic is concerned – honest talk: I meant to shutdown this space … More hello again!
Hello… it’s hard to believe that I’m here, back here, writing. I think it’s been a year-plus since I last wrote? Life happened. Correction: it’s still happening and really, it’s the reason I’m back. I just wanted to write down some thoughts and lots of feelings off my chest. Where do I begin? Let’s jump … More 28.
Putting this here because I want to remember these words and this feeling: After 5 straight days of working till nighttime at platform then barge, today my body experienced an internal system shutdown so I called it a day early (at 530 PM haha) and enjoyed, finally, my favorite solitary activity offshore: an evening up … More August rush.
Came across an excerpt of this poem and decided to look up the full version; wow, my heart – plummeted upon first read. ‘First Love’ is beautiful in a way that all great poems tend to be – simultaneously vulnerable, enchanting, and heartbreaking. “They say the first love’s most important. That’s very romantic, but not my … More “Something was and wasn’t there between us, something went on and went away.”
A long list of what it is like in the inner recesses – still a maze and clouded by shame – of my mind and heart: “He’s just not that into you” “It feels like a rejection as an individual and it… hurts. I get it if you don’t like like me – but why … More Office Crush / Stranger Crush
Back here cos this is my safe space for whenever I attempt to mentally declutter: I am actually and have been in a real soul and heart unease lately. It has been a few months but I feel like my bouts of loneliness are getting (or just feeling) worse. The thing is, lest you worry, … More heart-pain / heart-work
Putting this here cos I don’t want to forget: I will not hide my Muslimness anymore, nor will I apologize for or feel humiliated because I’m it. I will not hide my Muslimness anymore even with non-Muslim individuals (a historically long list) whom I find myself attracted and drawn towards – I will not be … More the coming out (2018)