When I am inspired, I want to challenge every tired narrative out there that is reflective of my personhood. I want to challenge every narrative that describes Possible against the landscape of words that are often brought up in the context of loaded and double-edged meanings: traditional; conservative; familial; cultural; religion; female; progressive; Muslim; Southeast … More Redefining Possible.
I have been thinking about this and decided I will just put it out. I think the process of living the words “Be yourself” is in truth, extremely difficult. I spent my teens and twenties unpacking what that means – how to stay true to myself while staying ‘relevant’. I have held myself back too … More You will always be ‘too much’ – and you are just fine.
I’ve been thinking about writing a lot since the lockdown started. Granted, I think about too many things and being on quarantine means my mind, like everyone else, spirals in all directions. Sometimes it’s an old memory from the past; sometimes it’s uncertainty of the immediate future; and sometimes it’s hopefulness from the great unknown. … More on writing, at 29.
I’ve thought about it for a while now and it keeps coming to mind, as if insisting to be written, so I’m back here. Of course. My safe space (sort of) – it’s cos I can write freely here, without attachment to my real name and identity. Funny though, even under this veil, I am … More owning my narrative – or: where, how deeply, is the truth of the truth of the truth that is buried in my heart?
Hello… Happy 2020! I don’t know if anyone from old is still reading/following this blog – I admit I’ve moved on – but I remembered it today and feel like I owe an explanation-of-sorts; an update, maybe final (though I won’t delete this space), of where I am now. Since I last wrote sometime middle … More hello…
Something I wrote last 2 Mondays ago and safekeeping here; A thought I had this afternoon: I want so much to tell girls, young or old, dealing with insecurities and self-esteem issues that other girls are not competition. You probably already know this but how important it is to be reminded every now and then … More “Trust yourself in the process of becoming.”
A Ramadhan reflection special cos it’s a quiet, beautiful Sunday morning. I spoke briefly to my Eldest Sis two evenings ago about my recent work-life development and she lamented about the Power of Dua (written in caps cos that’s how she meant it). “Never underestimate the power of dua,” she said. I agree wholeheartedly especially, … More “I’m exactly where I’m meant to be”
Mohi wrote me a heartwarming comment that came at just the right timing cos as weird as this sounds, I’ve been missing and thinking of writing lately and thought I’d maybe make occasional comebacks here. Which is a funny but relieving thought where blogphilic is concerned – honest talk: I meant to shutdown this space … More hello again!
Came across an excerpt of this poem and decided to look up the full version; wow, my heart – plummeted upon first read. ‘First Love’ is beautiful in a way that all great poems tend to be – simultaneously vulnerable, enchanting, and heartbreaking. “They say the first love’s most important. That’s very romantic, but not my … More “Something was and wasn’t there between us, something went on and went away.”
I’m going to try writing this down to find out if I can make sense of this ache… . I have struggled to fit in my whole life to the point it now feels like a lifetime predicament. Fitting in. How I loathe these 2 words. These days I wonder if it is a psychological … More ‘fitting in’: a lifetime predicament.